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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

message to all original PAE 05ers: please someone send me everyone's email..silly me lost them all!!!
I WANNA COMPLAIN! WHY 05 PEEPS ARE NOT TAGGING ME!! OEI!!!!!

okie, am down ranting. haha. nah..just somesort of really missed 05A05. though none of us are technically together in the same class, and someone else is probably in 05a05 now. however to me, we are still the original 05A05 rawkers. yeaup. what merissa wrote the other day about 05, oh my goat, made me teared and real touched.

whenever i stepped into my private school's class and see the sea of unfamilar faces. i felt unwilling to really make the effort to get to know them. but i guess, all good things will come to an end. i never knew the 3 months in PJC, i would reaped such a harvest of friends. who encouraged me when things were off, even though we barely knew each other. i have no idea what things will be like in the future, mebbe we might lose touch, mebbe we might not. but i really hope we can try to stay close. and in the meantime, enjoy the new school n envrionment? hugs to all oh-pie-ai-oh-pie rawkers!
_____________05A05_____________

i hate rainy days. i hate it when it starts to rain when i'm out and my jeans start to get wet. and dirt gets onto my slip-ons. and somehow, the radio just loves to churn out sad melanchoic songs when the sky's downcast. cant they like play happy tunes? like what's wrong with them?

and sumatra just had an earthquake last night. 8.2 on the Richter scale. i whispered in fear to God," Are you ending the world soon?" No reply. I really don't wish the world to end so fast. i'm only 17. i haven't been to poly. i haven't met my prince. i haven't have my own G12. Joy n Chris have not found their 12 yet. i haven't go married. i haven't got proposed to. i haven't explored enough. i don't wanna leave so fast. everything's happening too fast, too soon. God, don't end life so soon, pretty please?

We were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we'd have to go through
Now here we are, I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you
No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope, you were there to remind me
This is the start
Chorus
And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you
We were strangers, on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you
Back to Chorus
Knew there was somebody, somewhere
A new love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart
Back to Chorus
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you...

superhero to the rescue
1:50 PM

Friday, March 25, 2005

i'm such a weepie. wanted to go n bathe but my tv beckoned me over to channel 5 to wtahc the movie "men of honour". yea, i was tempted. haha. man i've read the movie tie-in book like 5 times? but never once watched the movie so FINALLY.

initially the newpaper reviewed this show as boring but boy, he was so wrong. i was glued to my tv set for a grand total of 2 hours. occasionally getting up to do some stretching jus to ease my guilt n hopefully it prevents my butt from getting bigger. lolx. kidding.oh yea back to me being a weepie. lemme give ya 10 evidence why i'm a certified weepie.

10 Evidence on what a weepie cow Annabel is
1: i teared at HK drama serials , even when it's a re-run and i know what's coming up next.

2: i tear while watching MTVs. yes. music videos. stuff ur sniggers.

3: i tear while listening to songs. sappy love songs make my tap goes on.

4: i tear at horrible lame scenes like where the grandmother was locked out of the house n the evil daughter-in-law refused to let her in.

5: i tear practically at any other movies. The Classic, Pearl harbor, men of honor..yea go ahead n laugh.

6: i tear when i read a book n one of the character dies. Laurlene McDaniel's books on cancer-stricken teenagers, it got me bawling while chomping on Ferreros.

7: i tear so often at church that i think everyone in the FCBC family has a packet ready for me each time at the altar.

8: i teared when i shared my testimonial. 3 times to 3 different groups of people.

9: i tear when trailers of poor kids n people come out n ask us to go for mission trips.

10: i tear so often that Chris n Joy n the rest of the gang always throws me tissues when i start sharing stuff.

so there u go. i'm such a weepie but they are good reasons k! haha n yes back to men of honor. true story on the USA Navy where one black guy aspires to be the Master Diver even when he chose to amputate his leg. great book, great movie. k..some of u prob thinks it's a bore but o well. =D

i'm not giving up
i'm not giving in
i'm fighting till the end.

superhero to the rescue
12:38 AM

Thursday, March 24, 2005

I'M HIRED BY COFFEEBEAN!!!!!!
muahaha..all thanx to jac who tipped me off abt the job offer. not a very bad job moreover i like coffee n tea, caffeine's in my blood. so yup..woo-hoo! anyway this is gonna be a long entry so hang in there!

finished my lit text "i'm the king of the castle". think i'm like only one in class who like polished off the book so fast. everyone's only at chapter 6 or less n mr david is doing chapter 2 n 3. this proves what a good student i am..*gags* the book is good n really sadistic. Kingshaw killed himself in the end cox he was unable to bear with all of Hooper's tauntings n Hooper was smug n glad to know that Kingshaw committed suicide because of him. the best part is, Kingshaw's 11 yrs old n Hooper's 10. children, scary.

went down to ngee ann yesterday with weiwen. most of us are at jc's orientation mah so i jus went with him to appeal. n my goodness..all the COP for poly courses rise like mad la! mass com from 14 become 10!! even early childhood was 15, chinese studies 13. -_-" and based on a confidential circulation among all the depts, 5 smarties with 5 points choose mass com as first choice n there like lots of 5-8 pointers who chose biomed, biotech,mass com, accountancy,banking..yada yada.
i must say it indeed is a blessing in disguise that i'm applying for poly next year..i mean my average results..HOW TO FIGHT!??!

God really has his reasons why He does things that are like so off to most of us and i guess..slowly i'm beginning to understand the big picture. *cross fingers* next year=mass com! =D

superhero to the rescue
3:04 PM

Sunday, March 20, 2005

insanity hasnt left me yet. wore the skirt i bought n the pink top n heels from prom night (yes heels!) to the Thomson Road Baptist Church to help out for Chris Tan n Serene's wedding. haha. all of the girls were mainly in pink n guys in blue so it was pretty cute.

didnt really had time to mingle around because we were helping out in the human traffic control n stuff so the whole day i was on my heels carrying chairs n tables n doing the "hi welcome! friends on this side n relatives at the further end" with a huge grin plastered over my face. i must say, i'm getting better on my heels eh? haha

the wedding was real sweet. i tink it is especially sweet when u know the couple personally so yes, i was like some excited kid clapping when they both said " yes i do" haha. Chris couldnt help but knock me on my head n laugh. lolz.

took lotsa pictures after the wedding and if got chance i'll upload them up...the guys were hilarious la! but oh yea..tiring day but nonetheless..i still wanna get married though getting married is one helluva of preparation n yes, MONEY. still..to walk down the aisle n exchanging vows with the one u love...awww!

superhero to the rescue
12:11 AM

Thursday, March 17, 2005

i wanna be a superhero.
to fly
to save
to hide
to escape
to live.

i gotta admit, reading "i'm the king of the castle" is beginning to make me sub-consiously insane. cant stop reading it. it's my lit text for goat's sake. lolz

am at julie's place now and jac's painting nails for us. i wonder why in the first place did i allow her topaint my toenails black with pink circles. insanity has taken over me. need more proof?

i just bought a skirt today and i was willing to buy it. get it, annabel. skirt. can the real annabel please return?

oh my goat.

superhero to the rescue
2:04 AM

Sunday, March 13, 2005

i'm beginning to feel that i'm so free that i can prctically update my blog every single day. well, not as if my life is so interesting that everyone wants to read but oh well, i'll still update. muahaha. i seriously think blogging as some sort of a therapheutic (am i right?) effect on me. hmmm..

oh yes today. couldnt wake up in time to go for SOL2 and apparently, michelle did called me to wake up and i did answered the phone. however, i have to recollection of whatsoever! uh-oh. think i was dreaming when i picked up the phone...! went down to billy bombers to meet vanessa, yihui, jac, michelle, eddie and jerold. eddie was treating us to lunch because it was my birthday and he realised he owed too many presents. haha. had a great time of chatting and chomping on food. the bill ran up to $110 but they forgot to count in 2 main courses (jac's n jer's) which were the most expensive. so in a sense, we saved $50 for eddie! wahaha..utter joy! and like how singaporeans are, we kept quiet n left. *winkx*

then shopped around and like all girls, we took neos. haha i really wonder what is the draw of taking neos? it seems like everyone in singapore (esp the female species) takes neos. oh yea we kinda "offended" 2 girls. i have absolutely no idea why. mebbe because we kept opeing the curtains to see if they were done. and like how some uncultured people or rather ah lains, they spouted vulgarities and my oh my, we were labelled as bitches!
the most hilarious part was one of the girls, walked zig-zag in effort to knocked into us. and the knock was so light that i couldnt help but wonder, wanna knock jus zoom in on us n knock la! like must u be so "tong ku" and have that kind of "knock-dont-knock" attitude.*rolls eyes* ah-lians. snorts.

mich left so the 4 of us went paragon's coffee club to just chill. jaixi came along and once again, a free meal. not that i'm complaining. muahaha. first time in my life, i ate at orchard without spending a single cent. whoopie. i love treats! rubs hands in glee. =D

superhero to the rescue
8:21 PM

Saturday, March 12, 2005

I'm 17!!! woo-hoo!
haha real touched by everyone who wished me happy birthday..man u guys make me feel over the moon! =D frankly speaking, i don't feel anything special la about today just that i kept screaming that today is my day n i call the shots..=p muahaha but yea it's my birthday. kind of reflect back 17 years ago, when God decided that i should pop out of my mum's womb wailing at the top of my lungs on this very day, what plans did He have for me? hmm..*rubs chin*
thankx min n alicia for ur gift..real cute n i love it! muah first prezzie!
thankx to my entire family at fcbc..haha love the gifts n yes the practical joke u guys pulled on me was scary!! haha =D love y'all to bits!
thankx to everyone who remembered my birthday n smsed or wished or called (guo wei*05a05*) !me..THANK YOU!
oh ya, the practical joke they pulled on me. jac n gang passed me jasmine's present n they secretly stole it from me n made me panicked that i lost it! haha n yesterday they gave me 2 sticks of chocolate that uncannily resembles crayons n bluff me say it was my present! haha man! but yeah i'm gracious so i still love y'all to bits!
u know as i grow older..i kind of put less value to how many gifts i'll receive. not that i dun like gifts but yea u get what i mean? haha..i'm more touched by the fact that people remember my birthday n wished me..hehe..guess my love language is "words of affirmation" ba! so what's yours? *smiles*
Love Language
~words of affirmation (like notes, cards, smses, wishes n stuff)
~gifts (in simple terms..presents)
~quality time (spending time together)
~acts of service (doing things for you like cook, chill out together bla bla)
~touch (hugs n stuff that involves physical contact..)

superhero to the rescue
11:16 PM

Friday, March 11, 2005

dotx! can u believe that i sprained my left foot without realising it? i never even fell down okay! but the chinese sinseh was telling me that sometimes walking too much will cause it so i was like..hmmm.. alicia! too much shopping with u le la! haha so went to school today n i'm an invalid. for once alicia offered to put back the plates for me *miracle* lolx.
slacked in school because mr ng said we need not attend lessons so jus sat in the canteen n chat with mah wonderful class *muackx*
lessons at eddington has started n no, i haven actually made any friends because i always scoot off after lessons so yah. the teacher is not bad, am taking english, comb. humans n pure lit wahaha..hopefully this time can get better results! thanx glenn for passing me ur guidebooks n notes...u're real sweet n many thanks!! and min, muakcx once again for passing me ur lit notes!
on the bus going home, jus realised how blessed n lucky i am to be in 05a05. u guys really brought much joy n love in my life so yea..am so going to miss u guys after the PAE! promise, we'll meet up every now n then eh? =D

i'm turning 17 soon in less than 12 hours..woo-hoo! my birthday wish? i'll get married to jay chou or be a superhero! muahaha..

superhero to the rescue
12:37 PM

Monday, March 07, 2005

it's been a long time ever since i've been to school on time..lolx. once again met min at lot 1 mac to have breakfast before going school. =D nic saw me in school and asked me what time i reached..haha oops 9.11am to be exact! the security guard changed den this new one dun seem to be very friendly. he attempted to book me n min for being late but he DIDN'T know how to activate the ez-link scanner so we were let off..not that it matter though!
eileen's very troubled over which JC to go..MADM, may u choose the jc that will put a smile on ur face! =D
scooted off from school before the official time of 1230 with eileen, min n al. eileen went home den the 3 of us went town to look for jobs. oh n yea peeps! u know the graffiti walls at far east level one? check out the purple markers' writing n liquid paper! haha we wrote 05A05 all around so yea check it out! haha. am so going to miss 05a05 (pae) peeps..sigh..but all good things mux come to an end so yea.
went SNEC for my eye checkup, waited for 1hr n 45 mins before it's my turn to see the doc for less than 10 minutes! ugh! waste of my youth! =p oh n thanx min, for passing me ur old lit notes..love ya muackx!
*cross fingers* hopefully that Candle wanna employ me n alicia! we needa the money!

superhero to the rescue
8:49 PM

Saturday, March 05, 2005

okay, as i re-read my previous entries, jus realised i was half wallowing in self-pity n perhaps harbouring sucidal thoughts..*gags*
just back from sanctification night 4 and i guess this was the most useful night to me..not that the previous 3 were useless but this was the one which i could u know, totally relate. yeaup. was actually considering going ITE but couldnt bring myself to do it. and my mum was kind of like very concern over me, practically calling me everyday on news abt o levels n stuff..*touched* rang up several private schools and man, they charge exhorbitant prices for ONE subject! the Queensfield school, they charge like $120 per subject?! haha..daylight robbery. but yea going down some eddington private school tml, price more reasonable ($60) and got the subjects i want (eng, comb. humans).
yea perhaps God just wanna use me for some of His purpose so yea. it's time to face the world again! woo-hoo. i dont blame Him i guess. it was hmm..i dunno? aiyah just dun laugh at me cox i'm dumb k? *laughs weakly*
hmm...jus dunno whether should i re-take Emath or Comb.science..u know, like back-up jus in case Cambridge sadistically hates me n wanna see me suffer..*cross fingers*
CHOY!

to everyone else: hopefully i'll see you guys in poly next year! *prays hard*

superhero to the rescue
12:41 AM

Friday, March 04, 2005

no chance left.yeah. no point appealing they don't even bother giving me a chance. i expected it but i held on to a little faith that maybe, maybe,God might be nice enough to fulfil this prayer. but whatever.
laid on my bed for the longest time. what should i do now?
called up private schools to ask about courses and stuff..one subject costs $60 and that was the cheapest. mum asked me to apply ITE's night classes. somehow i feel so dumb. an express student who has average results applying for ITE. not that i'm looking down on ITE students but "nan dao wo zhen de yao lun luo dao apply for ITE"?
God is not fair, God is just.
why do i make it out as if i'm so pathetic?

{at julie's place}

a couple hours left before heading out to church. jules not feeling well so went to her house to take care of her. used her com and tricked david lee n michelle that i'm some hacker. utterly hilarious. that's probably like the only thing that was not part of my mope. yeah. i'm trying to be happy. i really am. i jus need more time. and mebbe a miracle.

happy 19th birthday Caleb!
all the best for A level results [desmond.karen.caleb]

superhero to the rescue
4:05 PM

Thursday, March 03, 2005

went down to SAJC n PJC with jiemin today..this girl ah totally at a loss of where to go..and mr yeo was like psycho-ing her to go "Harbourfront..SAAAAA....!" haah cute. felt a little tinge of pain that i cant make a choice of where to go. *shrugs* i have to stand up again, cant expect the entire world to stop revolving just because of this setback, right?

trying to appeal to Ngee Ann Film Media Studies Department's Director to give me a chance for the interview n written test. Chances are...wait are there even chances? it's just real slim la. but i guess thank God my mum works at NP as the head secretary for Building Department and her boss, BD's Head kind of watched me grow up and is pretty willing to help me talk to FMS Head. there aint any promises that i'll have a chance but i jus give it a shot la..i have to fight for this eh?

and yea dont worry, i wont do silly stuff la. i'm done moping ( i guess...) now i just looking for another route ba. mebbe i'll work and re-sit the English exams and perhaps Humans at the end of the year den apply again? it's tough n i'll prob lose interest in studying but what else can i do? i'm only eligible for engineering courses now and u know i this kind, study engineering is so not my style..and i'll be wasting one place n my mum's CPF..so yah.
apparently TKSS has problems with the O's Eng results..hmm am i one of the suay one too?aiyah no point la..i'll see how things goes..or mebbe my eng really suck.

thanks desmond n arik(sorry i never add ur name in my prev. entry..=S), i'm fine, sorry to like ignore ur message n make u worry..thanks for ur concern.

kind of worried that when i return to 05a05, i'll be like somehow laughed at..everyone did so well n i'm like the black sheep of the class? but jiemin assured me that i'm silly to even think liddat..hah sorry human nature..was scared the guys at church wld look at me differently too..but yah i shouldnt think this way. *heaves a BIG sigh*

now all i can do is to have a little faith, keep the faith and let God take control. and as wad my darling jasmine told me ytd night,
"Faith is believing in something you cannot see..."
yes indeed yes.

superhero to the rescue
6:21 PM

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

got back my results yesterday. i'm disappointed. for my 10 years in education, i never once got a c6 for english. but now, for o's i did. did i over-estimated myself? all i asked for was an A or a B but God, You gave me a C and a C6. what's the reason? what's Your plan for me?
i'm dashed. cried so much. it was as though my world came crashing down, but i know i'm not the worst case around town. i know i understand but at least please understand my feelings?
nonetheless, there are still things to thank You for.

thankful for passing all my subjects, esp bio n a maths. and at least i am able to make it to poly.
thankful for ah pa Chris n ah ma Joy, who came down to offer support n encouragement. thanks for trying to cheer me up n telling me not to give up. thank you.
thankful for all my bros n sistas, clement jasmine jac julie weiting dee eunice weiwen david mich aunna mirabel julee, thank you for letting me seek comfort in you guys n all the inspirational messages n support. thank you. you guys really am my family.
thankful for all the good friends, christine jane darren weixiang eddie kokguang annabel ng sharmaine leekuan wafa baoling simin peixuan vanessa yihui diane teresa elson victoria ruiyi jiaxi hankiat arson xueli charle miss tan lianlian madam nisah miss lau mrs ang, thanks for everything, for being there to tell me to jiayou n not give up n all the hugs. thank you.
thankful for my 05a05 peeps, alicia anita eileen jiemin, thank you n sorry to make u guys worried. thanks for the calls n love.

perhaps words aint enough to express my gratitude to all of you guys. i guess if dee didnt come to hug me immediately and you guys to come and encourage me, i dont know what will happen. thanks for showing me love and most importanly not looking down on me and telling me God must have a purpose for me.

my brother is scaring me and he suggested i might as well dont apply for poly. i don't know. at this stage of life, i cant help but wonder God, why me again? did i studied hard enough? all i know is that i threw in all my effort but it all came down to a nought. my english. that was one hard blow. so where should i go now? i cant seem to see the light at the end of my tunnel.help.

superhero to the rescue
12:26 PM